Resisting

In a fight of thoughts I stay

God trying to lead the way

My mind fighting to stay

In the same mindset

That kept me stuck & astray

I, fighting so deep

I’m every day trying to resist

The urge to give up in any way

It is not for me

To leave everything 

I fought for and leap

Into the unknown 

Without proper direction of God

Without understanding that all

I am going through 

Is a process to make me strong

That I may not quit

But instead resist

Looking up to God

The Maker of my life

The Everything of my soul

For He is my help

The One who holds,

My hand

That I may keep on…

©Y.R.

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Liar In Me

There’s a liar in me

In deep fantasies it sinks

My most desires

As if I don’t know

What better to choose from

From what the world gives

And what I receive from God

But he does know

Yet he keeps me in the shadow

Of what really has value

In my life

To serve God with all my heart

It takes the truth

And changes all

Creating false pretensions 

Of what is pleasing to God

When revealing truth

Shows that God’s way, not mine

Is the truth

But I let him stay

The liar inside of me 

Robbing my true joy everyday

The joy that comes from Him

I fight, but seems I can’t 

Win over a battle to live in truth

And not in lies

I sink deeply in sorrow of all that I wish

The liberty I no longer have

Since this liar in me came to abide

The precious presence of my Lord and king

I long for to find

Oh how I wish 

The liar would depart

To cast him out 

To live in light

Of the One who says always to me

I am the Way, the Truth and the Life

You can only come to the Father by me.

©Y.R.

On This Day: Hide In His Presence

But He Himself withdrew [in retirement] to the wilderness (desert) and prayed. (‭Luke‬ ‭5‬:‭16‬ AMP)

God brought this passage to my heart for the Sunday service this past week. When I came across it the revelation within confronted me in a deep way.  It brought me to question my walk with God and my position in my intimacy with Him. 
Was I taking the time as Jesus did to withdraw myself from everyday things to be with Him? Or have I let distractions and people take my focus from seeking what is unperishable and eternal? It didn’t take me long to find the answer. I just had to examine my attitudes, decisions and behaviors. They said alot.
I don’t know about you, but doesn’t it feel our lives are so overwhelmed by things, events and others that our intimacy with God gets hindered? 
Jesus faced this challenge too! He was well known and followed by so many. Even in the midst of this He realized He needed time to be alone with God. It says that He himself – that shows a decision that Jesus made. It was not something based on feelings, but on the understanding of the need of replenishment of the presence of God in his life. Jesus, being the Son of God in flesh understood that for him to continue clinging to God He needed to be in His presence.  Without spiritual replenishment in intimacy with God we can not survive the fight against the snares of the enemy. It is the time we take to be alone to fast and pray to God where our flesh is submitted to the spirit. We get prepared and stregthened spiritually. 
Do you ever think about the last time you took aside to be ALONE with God? 
When was the last time you seperated yourself from all the wordly situations to go boldly to the Throne of Grace and ask God to fill you?
We are living in times where the enemy brings to our lives more and more ways to distract us from seperating ourselves to be with God. 
On this day make the decision to take time to be alone with God. I can assure you will not be the same.
God bless you! Y.R.

Fighting

I’ve been fighting with myself

Of how I’m supposed to act
If to act like a servant
Or like a wicked one
You may know the struggle
That I’m talking within
The one that draws the line
Between walking in holiness
Or drifting to sin
Where our spirit wants to be
Like Christ Himself
But our flesh take us away 
Going everywhere else
What should I do in this dilema of life?
When I want to serve and act
Like Christ
But the circumstance of hurt and pain
Bring us to a place 
Where we want to explode in uncivil ways
That is the moment I stand still
I choose to trust and kneel
Where only my prayer 
Is the sure thing I need
To keep walking like Christ
And to His Word heed…

REACT!!!

The snares of the enemy 

Bring us so much pain
When we distance from God
To find things our own way
When we think we can manage
And truly believe
We have inner strength
To escape out and succeed
Ignoring the warnings
All coming from above
Repeating the disapproval
That sin has from God
No matter how prayerful
We think we can be
Our prayer is hindered 
When we are living in sin
Until full repentance
And a firm decision is made
To depart from sin
And to surrender our ways
The work of the Lord we want in our lives
Is on hold waiting for the time
Until our hearts surrender 
And recognized
The reason God send His Son 
For us to die
Was to live for Him
And the Word that is our guide
To honor Christ who sacrifice 
That we may receive eternal life
©Y.R.

The Right Choice

I went through so much

Thinking in my strength 
I would be strong
But it failed…
I thought I could be bold
Not wanting something back
God had already from my side dispose
My pride was hurt 
And my emotions blown
Just to realize 
Wanting this was not worth it
It was just wrong!
That since the beginning 
I made the right choice
To be a servant of the High God
To step away from the damage source…
And now as time has passed
I made the mistake of reminising the past
Thinking something was there
I came empty handed
Blinded by the enemy’s snare
Of broken dreams
Whose pieces can never be restored
Instead of asking God for new ones to keep on…
This is on me
The fault lies now within
For allowing myself to even think
That this was all that was for me
The truth is so far from what I have seen
I learned in this journey
That I deserve better
That I am worthy 
Of being treated like a queen…
That some people are never meant to stay
The longer their time
The slower comes the tide 
That wipes all the pain away…
Now a lesson is being learned
Of my value
And the blind who came
That took me for granted
And forgot of the priviledge 
They had to know me one day
I don’t speak in pride
But all in humble truth
For I am priviledge to keep walking with God
And not depart from His side; I choose…
Choosing the will of God
Over mine I never regret
For God gives me everything
That no empty man for me can obtain…
Now my eyes are opened 
True light I see
His protecting power has been over me
From a greater mistake farther along
God showed He has something greater 
For I am His daughter
The daughter of the Most High God…
©Y.R.

Nothing

I waited
For nothing to come
Not even the wind
Was bringing forth
Any hope; any joy
Barren land I’m in 
Where the truth is not seen
Lies take away my peace
Help Lord! Please!
I need to sleep!
Recue me from this pit!
Tears keep rolling
I’m waiting for happiness to stop them
And truth to dry them up
But what truth am I waiting for?
The patched up?
The ones with a facade? 
Hiding the cruel reality inside
Do I want to know?
Is there any truth at all?
In men not at all
But of you, Christ, I recall
Saying You are the Way, Truth and Life

So in you my Lord, the living Truth, I will rely

©Y.R.

SELF

I am talking to you, self,
You who takes my emotions
On a spinning motion
At an incontrollable speed
Oh indeed I can’t much understand
How you take me to the top
Where desperation crawls 
And covers me with no place to run
Oh you, who thinks to know it all!
My inner self, the controlling troll!
Not consulting, not pondering
But in a lack of truth resolving
Attacks every situation at its own will
Just to find
The cruel truth 
That abiding by his own thinking 
Nothing comes right
Even if it seems at first
The impulses of not consulting
The One who is the Beginning and End
Brings disillusion of what I think is best.
Oh if I could put a muzzle on your mouth!
Wrap you in chains to control you about
That I would have dominion to direct
And not you directing my every step
There is only one way
I’ll bring you up still wrapped in those chains
To the Holy Spirit who knows how to tame
Every bit of your own selfish desires
I’ll use the Word as a constant reminder
That you don’t control my every move
That my word and action will be in truth
Grounded on certainty of the knowledge 
That Jesus is my Lord 

I will obey Him and not you!

©Y.R.

You Are Here



Let my heart rejoice in You
That every beat leaps
That every breath deeps
With Your overwhelming presence
Can I stay?
Under Your wings lay
In Your peace delight
Knowing my Lord, 
You are here by my side?
I want to so much!
Lean against your chest and know
That through all You are here
Lifting me up and wiping my tears

©Y.R.

My Will?

How naïve have I been!
Thinking my way is the ease
That I can graciously formulate
The plan of my life
Not realizing the little resources I have.
Futile thoughts my mind thinks
Pondering ways to God’s will skip
I am only deceiving 
Oh my! My own self!
Fighting with weak strength
The will of my Creator!
Poor of my soul!
A wretch is he
In its own way wanting to proceed
I wondering if that is the cause
Of what now goes
I feeling trapped in my own goals
Stuck in a tangle that doesn’t seem to clear
A tangle of all everything God doesn’t want near
Waiting for me is my Savior Divine
Waiting for me to decide
If I will break free of what I want

And finally to Him surrender my will and life

©Y.R.

Waking Up

I am dreaming of a new beginning
My process is soon ending
Bringing new blessings
I have only seen in my sleep
Oh what a relief!
When my heart just settles
In the love that is eternal
In the truth that sustains itself
In my loving Christ
I look back at my life
In my thinking realize
The road traveled has not destroyed
It has kept me strong
Every trial and situation mold
The person God wants to show
It’s overwhelming
I can’t fathom think
How in my darkest moments
God was working in me
Changing, instructing, and emerging in me
The woman He created
Breaking down the woman
The world wanted to make out of me
Is here where I see, I realize
That every situation
Gives forth another chance
That new beginnings will come in
When we surrender to God
Give Him our all
And over everything trust Him

©Y.R.

Attention

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I wish you would seek
So diligently the presence of God
As you do worldly things
That your attention would gear more to the Word
That a strong rhythm of faith
Synchronizes with your heart’s beat
That your mind would be steadfast
In the truth of the Word
In the love of Christ who died for you
That you will never drift away
Oh how I long that you would comprehend
The great deliverance and peace
If you trust Him would obtain
That every dark moment
Is Him working in you
Whether you see it now
Or just not have a clue
That every situation that comes as a dismay
It is Him showing He is the only Way
Only for one reason He does this to you
So you lift up your eyes and realize
He is the only Way, Life and Truth

©Y.R.
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I Will Not Forget You

“Can a woman forget her nursing child, And not have compassion on the son of her womb? Surely they may forget, Yet I will not forget you. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭49‬:‭15‬ NKJV)

All the time people are coming in and out of our lives. There are some that do not want to be part of it. They simply walk away. Then there are others that push us away. Not because we have done wrong, but simply because they do not know how to handle to be around us anymore. This is not about us. It’s their own internal battle that pushes us away. Is their survival mechanism.

In this particular dilemma we get stuck. It is hard to deal with rejection, abandonment and forgetfulness. We do not understand why they have rejected us, have pushed us away or have simply forgotten us. It hurts because we do not want to be rejected. We don’t want to be forgotten like we were just a mere leaf that the wind blew by. Unfortunately, it does happened, and the enemy likes to take advantage of those situations to drill in our minds how worthless we are. That them forgetting is a sign how inexistent or little meaning you had in their lives.

Guess what? That is not true! People do not determine our worth! Them forgetting about you and leaving you in the air cannot control your mind with unnecessary frustration. Them choosing to forget cannot control. You know why? God says that even when people forget us or the good we have done in their lives God doesn’t forget us! How wonderful is that!
Isaiah described it like a mother that cannot forget her child. How much more precious are we to Lord Almighty! We are His children and He cares for us. Even when loneliness and abandonment wants to sink us in a whole of desperation and worthlessness God says it is not like that. Man can hurt, walk away and forget but our everlasting God will not forget us. He said I will not leave you or forsake you.

Be assured brothers and sisters that God is still present. Even when everyone has deserted you and may have even forgotten your name God says, “Yet, I will not forget you.”

©Y.R

Your Word

When my mind rumbles
And I tend to over think
I will ground my thoughts
In your Word of peace

When I see darkness
Surround and abound
The lamp unto my feet
Takes all darkness out

When the battle gets stronger
And weakened I get
I meditate on your Word
That increases my strength

When I do not know
The road to pick
I’ll cling to Your Word to guide
To do what is pleasing to Thee

©Y.R.

I Look To Him

I will look beyond
I will see the greatness of God
Where my peace lies
And my comfort stays
Where I don’t fear trouble
Where I am not dismayed
I will look to Him
Who saved my soul
The Eternal and gracious
Jesus, our Lord
Whom to all the praise has to be
My Christ, My Saviour, My King

©Y.R.

You Will Make It

Thinking about God my heart sinks
Yes, it sinks.
I am confronted with myself
I realize His greatness and eternal love
I stare in awe
Of my sinful condition
How He sent Christ to cleanse me from all
I meditate on His Word
Every letter; every phrase
Knocking at my heart
Asking to abide
So its work may start.

Then there comes my troubles
My mind wants to influence
What God Himself has said
It’s the best for my life
Surrendering to Christ
Letting Him change inside
It’s that battle that takes my peace
I, knowing what is good to me
Choosing things that break me
Not nourish me
Spiritually, I mean.

Then my soul ponders some more
On His grace
The one we don’t deserve
Why? Why would He be like that?
When my sinful nature reveals that
I keep failing Him
No righteous in me
It doesn’t matter to Him
The times my sinfulness makes me sink
His loving grace lifts me
I am certainly not perfect at all
But to His grace I cling all day long
For when I can’t He says I am here
I will carry you through
You will make it, My Dear.

©Y.R.

Changing

Let the heart rejoice!
Free at last
Decided to blast
All chains bounding to the past
It’s not easy
A job that’s hard
A decision is where it starts
Not based on feelings
Nor circumstance
Based on the love of God
That fills my lonely heart
A love so pure and constant
No storm can drift me apart
The path is to push forward
No reason to stall
I abide in His love
Knowing in Him I have all I desire
Believing His will is higher
Than expectations I once believed
Would really satisfy my needs
Now looking back
I have a clear sight
That the pain was a disguise
To show me a part of Him
I would never see in happy times

©Y.R.

Will

Why do I fight?
What good is it to my life?
The struggle inside
Of doing my will
Or following Christ’s
Hard I excuse
Bringing to my human mind
Incomprehension of the Divine
For it is not my mind who needs
To bring reasoning to this
But my spirit in me
Listen to His Word
Accept and keep
Though my ways may seem good
The future is only known to Him who
Is the beginning and the end
The maker of heaven and earth
Him who always knows what’s best
I relinquish my will to His way
Having assurance in me
That His will is always for my good
Even when I don’t think

©Y.R.