I am tired!!!!!!!!
My internal scream whose echo rumbles through my inside like a massive nonstopable earthquake. I am not tired of working, studying or the daily. That tiredness is physical and psychological. It is normal and comes with this thing we live every day called life. The tiredness that shakes my soul is a deep one. It is one that no spa, medication, meditation, or excersise can relax. Is that one that consumes the soul.
That tiredness that comes from trying on my own. Trying to submit to the Word and see how it does not sink into my heart but like a slow passing wind drifts out of my mind. Then without notice a stronger wind pushes me into what I do not want to do. I am tired of pretending I can handle it. Like moving sand I sink slowly in the idea I can control the situation. I am tired of not getting into my head that I need more of Christ! That without Him I am lost, abandoned and in a pit. I am tired of going into the Israelite cycle of sin, repentance and forgiveness and back again. What can I do? My heart is burdened. My eyes are full of tears which refuse to come out from the shame of one more time realizing I failed in my attempt to please God. I am tired of being a stumbling block for others those that looked to me in a time where I was firm on the rock which is Jesus Christ.
Now the question that rises is what can I do? Keep relying on myself and keep believing that I can control the situation? Will I give up and lay aside the wonderful salvation and eternal life Christ has given me?
I REFUSE TO!!!!!!!!!!
If I place on one side of the scale what the world gives me and on the other what Christ has given me. I would tell you the abundance mercy, grace, love, joy and security that Christ has given me outweighs all. Not by an ounce or pound but by the weight of His blood that was shed for me. It’s my place to honor that blood, that sacrifice that was given for me. I have to honor the God whose love can never be measured.
Tiredness comes. I, as many of you, may be tired of the fight and sometimes wanting to give up wanting just to rest from the fight. But what would be the point of receiving a rest that is temporary and artificial and its end is death. Tiredness is there. The pain is there. What I chose is to give everything to Christ even if it hurts me. It may take some time and maybe restrictions or even giving up things. All comes to that moment on the Cross and the sacrifice that was given for me. In the end the benefits outweigh the present pain.

Romans 7:15-24
For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?

2 Corinthians 4:17
For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory…

On This Day: I’ll Wait


I wrote this some weeks ago and for some unknown reason neglected to post it. Maybe it wasn’t the time. Maybe now it is…

         Wanting to distract my mind from daily pressures I sat at the seashore of the wonderful Arabian Sea. A marvelous spectacle of God’s majestic creation. Seating there I observe as the seagulls line up as if in a straight military line formation looking straight ahead. They were like contemplating the sea. There attention to it was to be admire. They’d were waiting as for the sea to bring them something. The seagulls just stared in observation. What a coincidence with me! I was like them just waiting! I was waiting for my thoughts to get settled. For these to organize at the same rhythm that I see the waves dance to. It worked for a moment but discouragement wanted to come in. How many times did I sat infront of life just waiting? In many ocassions that was the only thing I did because as the seagulls I stood observing what God will bring my path.
There are episodes in our lives that we are like those seagulls just waiting. Waiting for the miracle, the change, the showing of the fruit of our labor. Just waiting we have done everything. Our efforts are exhausted our prayers just have one song, God when?
I see the seagulls starring in expectation not only waiting without hope they know something is coming the sea will bring them food what they need.
Then comes to mind what God tells us, “If I take care of the birds in the sky wouldn’t I take care of you?” Sometimes we are willing to wait but our wait is not in absolute expectation but in skepticism. Our hope is low and our patience is lower. This when the enemy wants to take the last bit of hope we may have. It is at that moment where the Word of God becomes our strength. Our wait turns into a gentle breeze. In the least expected moment God ends our wait and we receive what we have been waiting for.

On This day remember waiting on God is worth the wait.

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Really, You Are Perfect?

Are we all perfect? As Christians, I mean. Do we let ourselves believe that we are better than those that struggle day by day to find a reason for their lives? How many of us keep the posture, the talk and the ways of Christian life to the human eye? At the same time in the dark, on the blinded side of the human eye, there it is, the emptiness, the struggle, the doubt and more than anything, our tired soul laying on the floor thinking the next breath is the last. We rarely want to admit this, not even to ourselves. We are tired! We are destroyed and we seem to have lost focus of everything or worst of who we are serving. We have lost our focus in Christ in the midst of situations, loss and the sorrows that accompany. It is a destroying moment when you realize that, yes, I am not perfect.

What do you do then? Let your self die? The confrontation is so abrupt inside of us. We are Christians! We should not live in defeat! Our life is of victory and triumph! That’s what we hear and are taught. Sure, that is true. What we don’t understand is that we will go through downfalls like any other. We will struggle and have to fight more than others. That is called my friend, vulnerability. We forget that we are still in this flesh fighting every moment to achieve to go everyday from victory to victory. Remember though, in the battles there will always be losses. The choice is ours. What loss do you want to experiment, the loss of those things that God wants to take out of our life so you will be more Christ like or loose yourself in the battle and in the end die without achieving nothing? This is when dependence on God would be our ONLY help.

It is that moment when a firm decision has to be taken. You accept your vulnerability. You refuse to fight with your strength, knowledge and will. You commence to deposit every struggle in the hands of God and see how perfect His grace is to sustain you. We are not perfect; we will never be on this earth. The guarantee we do have is that the perfect One sustains and strengthen us as we more draw to Him.

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.  2 Corinthians 12:9-11

Thankful Faith

We start the month of be thankful. Even though we should be thankful at all times this month is taken into our culture to bring forth to remembrance the things for which we are thankful for. Now, seeing this I would like to bring a perspective as Christians we constantly forget or don’t realize the importance of being thankful for what you have not yet seen. Yes, I said what you don’t see.

We declare the Word of God, His promises, but we neglect to give thanks to God for them when they have not yet come to pass. Why should we? Because if He has said it in His Word it is true and will come to pass. We should be thanking Him for every promise that He has made us and the wonderful future of fulfillment that is to come into our lives.

If you are sick thank Him for the marvelous healing He is doing and will complete in your life. “By His stripes you are healed”

If you are battling depression and it seems like the vicious mood cycle and lack of concentration will not end thank Him for the freedom He has declared and done over you life. “He came to set the captives free”

If you are facing troubled times where right decisions are difficult to make thank Him for guiding you to the truth and helping you face this time with strength. “His Spirt will guide you in spirit and in truth.”

For every situation there is a promise and if we believe and ask God to fulfill that promise according to His will in our life we can be assured it will. We can start thanking Him in advance for the tremendous things He will do.

You would notice I didn’t say if have gone through this. I said if you are going through it. Thank God for what you have asked that you have not yet seen Him answer. Thank God before it happens. He has said; it will happen. So why not take the time to thank Him ahead of the wonderful works that He is to do in our lives.

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

That my friend is a THANKFUL FAITH.

How Do You Feel?


How do you feel right now?

Do you feel anxious? Probably doing that “tick” thing that you do when you are trying to keep your head straight.

Maybe you are worried about the decisions you have to make. You are analyzing every possible scenario creating different situations that may come.

Maybe you are just trying to finish something that seems never to be finished.

Maybe your relationships are never coming to the happily ever after and frustration has sinked in.

Maybe you feel empty because as much as you try to fill with material things or entertainments the void does not seem to go away.

Maybe loneliness has trapped you. Even with people around you it seems you’re the only being on the planet.

How many times have people asked you this? Unless people know of a situation that is going on in your life most likely they won’t. Most of the time we forget that every day God wants to know how we feel. He wants us to pour our hearts in His presence and tell Him what has hurt us or what struggle we are facing that we have no clue to. Yes, God knows everything, but in His lovingkindness He wants to have this wonderful relationship with us that we may share everything with Him. He wants us to go to Him FIRST and tell Him what is going on inside us. The wonderful part is that there is no protocol! We can present ourselves before Him. Doesn’t matter if you are throwing a tantrum, looking at the ceiling crying, or just asking why; He will hear. David understood this clearly. He came before the Lord with questions, praises, ashamed, needing comfort, not understanding and pretty much every possible way. David knew the only one that will truly understand how he felt was the One who created him and had the power to change everything for his good.

The question is no longer how do you feel. Is Do you know who KNOWS how you feel?                              The only One is Christ.

For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.                                                                                       Hebrews 4:15

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Story Of A Man


I will tell you today

About a lost who never seem to find his way

During times frustration will fill

The deepness of his heart and will

How could he find what was never found?

How would he reach that which was not around?

His desires sank low

In the shadows of despair and lack of hope

What was he going to do?

He knew not the way to pursue

A dream, a thought or just something new

There was nothing that he could see

Something that will give the hope that he wanted in him

Then one day, not specific indeed

It may have been by coincidence, he thinks

He found someone that captivated his heart

Someone from everyone so set apart

Christ, may I say came to Him

Changed everything in his life

It was almost like a dream

Truly no dream, but reality indeed

He received the hope that was longed by him

Today his life has been changed

That man no longer wonders vaguely through life

He knows now the way of triumph and love

He received Christ as His Savior

The real happiness and hope

Poetry Y.R.

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On This Day 30 – Do Not Stop, God Will Lead


I know is the easy route giving up
When you are in the road
Leading everywhere except where you want to be

We sometimes think God’s road is not right
All because of our human mind
But looking closer we do see
His ways are higher than me

I wish I could go my way, I think
But my way has never got me where I want to be
It has just lead me to pain and shame
God’s road takes me from glory to glory through His grace

Today I will let Him lead the way
I may not understand it at first
But through His Word He will light
The paths of darkness I may find

I just trust over all and everything I see
God’s purpose in my life will be done
And no one will impede

Poetry Y.R.

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On This Day 29 – Be Thankful

How many situations do you go through every day? How many do you think you can be thankful for? Are you thankful for the good ones but not for the bad ones? Thankfulness is a whole. Thankfulness is defined as being pleased and relieved. When God is in our lives we can be please that He is by our side and relieved that He can do what we can not do. We have to be thankful for the whole thing, the good and the bad. Situations may not always line up with our desires or goals but in God’s plans for our lives they are lining up. Whether is seeing what you expected come to pass or not seeing it work as you expected be thankful. Thankfulness is gratitude to God. Is this wonderful praise that we have inside of us because we know God is good. He is in control of ALL situations in our lives. He knows what is best better than we do.

On this day just thank Him for what He has done, what He is doing, and what marvellous work He will do that will be a more glorious blessing than you have ever thought. God is in control.

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

Romans 8:28

On This Day 28 – Just Pray


We go through so many things. In many of them feel so overwhelmed, anxious and just plain disturbed in our mind and hearts. When those moments arise is like our mind goes blank on what we are supposed to do. We think about everything thats wrong and how is affecting our life, but we just don’t seem to find the way to get through it. The simple answer lies in the reality of where our focus is. If our focus, even in the middle of the caos and disturbance, is Christ we have a surety inside our soul that we are not going through it alone. When our focus shifts from Christ to what we have encountered it becomes a rollercoaster of emotions that sometimes are so incontrolable even to the most spiritual Christian. What could we do in those circumstances we face that seem so impossible to bare? The answer lies in one word, Pray. This praying is not the one that you will hear from a pulpit with the elegant words. It is the prayer of supplication, rendition and need that comes from the deepness of your soul to the only one, the Almighty God, that can help you in this situation. It is not a prayer of quantity of words,but of a full trust in Whom is faithful.

On this day things maybe overwhelming and uncertain,but in the middle of thing know that prayer is the most powerful weapon to overcome any situation. Today pray knowing that God is there to listen.

Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me.

Psalm 50:15

On This Day 26 – It’s Going to Be Ok


On this day…Every thing will be ok…

Don’t you love when in the midst of your worst moment someone comes and tells you,”Don’t worry everything is going to be ok.”  The look on your face of wanting to grab them and pull them inside of you so they can really see what you are feeling and never again in their life say that phrase to you again. There are situations in life no one will be able to understand what you feel, how you feel and even understand why or what you are goin through it. Truly, they will not be able to help you. Why? Because the only One that truly can get inside of you and examine the deepness of your heart is God. No matter how many times you hear that phrase from people it is not the same as hearing it from God Himself.

He does know what you are going through. He does know how you feel. Most importantly, He knows the solution and the way to heal your heart. God has said it in His Word you just have to trust Him. On this day you may not like to hear that phrase from others, but learn that if God says it, it is true and He has control over your situation and will provide a way.

Isaiah 41:10

Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

On This Day 25 – A Thought

On this day God is in control…

On this day remember God will be with you in every situation big or small. Don’t over think it, over analyze it. He is with you. He takes care of you and is listening to your prayers! God will guide you. You will learn from this trial to get closer to Him. You will see His glory in your situation.

Proverbs 3:5-6 says Trust in The Lord with all thine heart and lean not on your own understanding;In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your path.

The key is to trust. Have a wonderful day knowing God is in control.



In the midst of verses I try to find
Some answers to the action which arise

Not much to say, a lot to think
I ponder much on what I did

It may have been good in some eyes
To others more come as a surprise

I prayed for whom I did not know
Just acted on direction from Above

The look in their eyes was not much
But at the question, “May I pray for you?” They lit up

The boldness needed to do this approach
Was not easy to find, I just say from Above

To go up to someone in pain to offer life
Not knowing the situation just trusting The Holy Spirit inside

And when finish, the Amen sound
Tears in their eyes gave confirmation abound

That I may not know what’s going on
But our Heavenly Father knows it all

If I just trust Him acting on faith I shall see
A change in a life through the love shown come to be

My call is to serve no matter what
He knows the need; I just need to act

Poetry Y. R.

On This Day 24 – Stay Quiet



On this day stay quiet…

You know you are doing right and following God’s path for you when you face the enemy’s opposition. It is in those times that you are giving everything to Christ that the enemy responds with opposition, disappointment, and just using people to take you off the course God has intended for you. So what do you do? Do you sit and whine why me? NO! You stand up in Faith and trust God knowing that the battle is not yours is the Lords. Use the Word of God and His promises as your mental shield from the influence of the comments, reactions or attitudes that want to corrupt your path. Today remember that God is for you! You do not have to defend yourself. He will. Trust Him.

Romans 8:31

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

Destruction to Life


How I wonder

The life I chose

Not perfect at all

Many mistakes in it I have done

Was everything worth it?

The choices I mean

Did they bring life

Or slowly killed me?

They did both I see

The wrong ones destoryed me

The right ones lifted me up

From all of them I have learned some

The most hurting I can remember to be

Was giving my heart to a nobody

I gave all and received just pain

Emotional, psychological and physical I say

All in one came to attack

My fragile and devastated heart

I thought no one would ever want

Someone so broken like I was

I tried to get up

Inside destroyed

Still in the deepness of myself

Remembered the name that once brought joy

I remembered Jesus

How He was always with me

And at this moment of disgrace

I could still call upon Him

I called not really believing

That after so long I was worth to something be receiving

The love, compasion and understanding

My heart, my life so much needed

He answered to my surprise

I was dead in sin and lies

But He still answered

To give me life

I will tell you it was no easy task

Surrendering to Him my life and my heart

But through the process I have seen

 How’s He turned destruction to a life of victory

Poetry Y.R.

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On This Day 23 – Be A Kid


Hectic week but seeing the glory of God in different lives. This last week giving a Bible class to my youth I asked each one what made them sad and happy…The older ones responded with church, sports, games and other things…then the smallest about ten years old impacted me with his answer…He tells me that what makes him happy is knowing that Jesus is part of his life and is by his side….Then I asked what made them sad and he answers…That Jesus would not be in my life!!! The Word of God is powerful saying that we have to be like children to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. We have to see our happiness based on Jesus and see our greatest sadness to be away from Him and not having Him in our lives.  Is time to seek more and cling more to Jesus our Saviour!

On This Day 22 – I Want To Think


On this day just think…

There are not much words that can be uttered at this moment. We are seeing so many terrible things that have been goin on that if I wanted to bring something jolly in some way our minds will drift from a very important thing. We live in such a hurried pace every day, and rarely take the time to think. Think about yourself, your family and most importantly your relationship with God. Times like these make us reflect on our own individual position in life and before God.

Think about all the things you want and then think of all those things that other people in the World don’t have it.

Think about the security you may have in your life and then think about those that have lost it and do not even know what is to feel secure in life with a shadow of constant threat.

Think about your family and the love you give them and then think about those that only have themselves and no one else to count on.

Think  about what you lack and then still thank God you lack of them so that you can remember everything you have He will provide according to His will.

Think about your relationship with God, of His goodness to you and then think about those that have not heard of Christ.

Think about what is lacking in your relationship with God, and make every effort to get closer to Him.

Finally, just think about what needs to be changed. Times are not getting better and Christ is at the door. It is our time to think and act on the understanding that without God we can do NOTHING!

Psalms 141:1

Lord, I cry out to You; Make haste to me!
Give ear to my voice when I cry out to You

On This Day 21 – He Will Do

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On this day know that He will do…

God is all powerful! We tend to forget that. There is no task He can not complete. He will do. Wait and see the great thing God will do. In your situation, all doors may look close, the hope may be almost gone but still KNOW HE WILL! God is drafting a marvelous plan for your situation. It is He who will receive the glory for the outcome. It will not because of knowledge, skill or movement but by the mighty power of His hand. On this day know that even when things look like there is no possibility remember He is the God of the impossible!

On This Day 20 – I Will Wait


On this day I will wait…

The saying is…“Patience is a virtue”. Ok. Patience is defined as an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay. Now let me tell you what is virtue. Virtue is defined as a good or admirable quality or property. What a lovely definitions! The bad part is that most of us (at least 98%) don’t have the good or admirable quality or property of Patience. Why? Look around you. The world we live now does not help your attitude and daily life to acquire and maintain the quality or property of patience. We want this now! That is what we say.

I know about that. Just in these days I was all going crazy because I decided Android was done for me so I wanted an IPhone 4S or 5. I just wanted a new gadget. I thought I was in heaven when a friend of mine agreed to sell me his. Awesome! Well, not quite. Being overseas I need it unlocked and his was not (Sprint). What happened? I went bananas looking for ways to unlock it. Then not finiding anything I opted to immediately go get a brand new phone. The problem is I was restless and annoyed looking for this quick way to avoid the delay on what I wanted. After some time my head was pounding so hard for all the time searching I finally gave up. Sitting in my room I realized my lack of patience and foolishness of wanting something that I can really wait for.

How many times we think God has to do or bring up something when we want? We should be patient. This is not something you say or memorize is something like excersise. You try a little today, a little tomorrow and with time you are able to work it out. God has a lot of patience with us. We should have it with others and with ourselves. Most importantly give God the chance to do it His way and wait patiently. You may get mega surprised by Him. On this day… Just wait.

I waited patiently for the Lord; And He inclined to me, And heard my cry. Psalms 40:1

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us… Ephesians 3:20

On This Day 19 – God Knows


On this day just relax…God knows…

We live so worried about God’s will for our lives. I know how frustrating it can be when we know we have to make decisions, but we don’t know how to proceed. Like me, you may be asking yourself, how can I know? Is all through prayer, His Word and over all Faith in His guidance. Even if things don’t make sense now and the way God is taking you may not seem “normal” to your thinking when you trust Him that all His plans are to prosper you and not to harm you; you will be able to move in Faith.  Today understand God knows. His plans are perfect. Just Trust Him.

On This Day 18 – No Excuse


On this day I put no excuses…

What is important to you? Is it yourself, your family, your career or some hobby? Is it what you can achieve o what you can obtain? Or is it God? We have so many ambitions and desires all centered on what we can or will do. Today I want you to think deeply and examine yourself. How many excuses have you brought before God to not do the things He has asked you?  To do them the way He wants? How many more arguments are you going to have late at night with Him bringing forth your arguments of how you are not capable to do what He has asked? Did you forget Moses? Look what happened when Moses brought his excuse before God look what He said…

Then Moses said to the LORD, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue. So the LORD said to him, Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? have not I the LORD? Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth, and teach you what you shall say. Exodus 4:10-12

Moses brought excuses before God and God brought to his rememberance His unquestionable power. When it came to these blogs I put a lot of excuses in my head but God showed me it was His will, time and that He was to guide me through it. Whether is a task, a service to someone (even one you may not like), or a Word of God planted in your heart to give someone or to pray for someone; if He has asked you is because He knows you can accomplish it. Today let your love for Him be so great that even though you may not think of yourself uncapable you will allow his teaching and guidence to accomplish the work because you want to do God’s will. Today trust that with Him everything is possible and no excuse is needed.