Resisting

In a fight of thoughts I stay

God trying to lead the way

My mind fighting to stay

In the same mindset

That kept me stuck & astray

I, fighting so deep

I’m every day trying to resist

The urge to give up in any way

It is not for me

To leave everything 

I fought for and leap

Into the unknown 

Without proper direction of God

Without understanding that all

I am going through 

Is a process to make me strong

That I may not quit

But instead resist

Looking up to God

The Maker of my life

The Everything of my soul

For He is my help

The One who holds,

My hand

That I may keep on…

©Y.R.

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No Poems

Today I don’t have a muse for poetry. 

I just want to let you know, my reader, that God is mighty! Even in the most draining and unresolve circumstances He rises above all to show His glory….JUST TRUST HIM

Liar In Me

There’s a liar in me

In deep fantasies it sinks

My most desires

As if I don’t know

What better to choose from

From what the world gives

And what I receive from God

But he does know

Yet he keeps me in the shadow

Of what really has value

In my life

To serve God with all my heart

It takes the truth

And changes all

Creating false pretensions 

Of what is pleasing to God

When revealing truth

Shows that God’s way, not mine

Is the truth

But I let him stay

The liar inside of me 

Robbing my true joy everyday

The joy that comes from Him

I fight, but seems I can’t 

Win over a battle to live in truth

And not in lies

I sink deeply in sorrow of all that I wish

The liberty I no longer have

Since this liar in me came to abide

The precious presence of my Lord and king

I long for to find

Oh how I wish 

The liar would depart

To cast him out 

To live in light

Of the One who says always to me

I am the Way, the Truth and the Life

You can only come to the Father by me.

©Y.R.

On This Day: Hide In His Presence

But He Himself withdrew [in retirement] to the wilderness (desert) and prayed. (‭Luke‬ ‭5‬:‭16‬ AMP)

God brought this passage to my heart for the Sunday service this past week. When I came across it the revelation within confronted me in a deep way.  It brought me to question my walk with God and my position in my intimacy with Him. 
Was I taking the time as Jesus did to withdraw myself from everyday things to be with Him? Or have I let distractions and people take my focus from seeking what is unperishable and eternal? It didn’t take me long to find the answer. I just had to examine my attitudes, decisions and behaviors. They said alot.
I don’t know about you, but doesn’t it feel our lives are so overwhelmed by things, events and others that our intimacy with God gets hindered? 
Jesus faced this challenge too! He was well known and followed by so many. Even in the midst of this He realized He needed time to be alone with God. It says that He himself – that shows a decision that Jesus made. It was not something based on feelings, but on the understanding of the need of replenishment of the presence of God in his life. Jesus, being the Son of God in flesh understood that for him to continue clinging to God He needed to be in His presence.  Without spiritual replenishment in intimacy with God we can not survive the fight against the snares of the enemy. It is the time we take to be alone to fast and pray to God where our flesh is submitted to the spirit. We get prepared and stregthened spiritually. 
Do you ever think about the last time you took aside to be ALONE with God? 
When was the last time you seperated yourself from all the wordly situations to go boldly to the Throne of Grace and ask God to fill you?
We are living in times where the enemy brings to our lives more and more ways to distract us from seperating ourselves to be with God. 
On this day make the decision to take time to be alone with God. I can assure you will not be the same.
God bless you! Y.R.

A Heart

   

I have asked for a new heart
One more grounded
Less apart
From Your Word
From Your presence and grace
One that will be keen
To the direction You bring
To everything in my life
A healed and healthy heart
Not one in pieces
With broken pieces bonded tight
I want a new one
No residual of scars 
Of what I’ve gone through life
A heart that separates what is real from false
A heart that trusts only in You, oh Lord
A heart that will not open
To no random person in wind
But open to the one You have separated for me
A new heart I plea!
Change mine is not in one piece
For You are the healer
The Divine doctor that gives me the heart
That at Your rhythm will beat…

©Y.R.

REACT!!!

The snares of the enemy 

Bring us so much pain
When we distance from God
To find things our own way
When we think we can manage
And truly believe
We have inner strength
To escape out and succeed
Ignoring the warnings
All coming from above
Repeating the disapproval
That sin has from God
No matter how prayerful
We think we can be
Our prayer is hindered 
When we are living in sin
Until full repentance
And a firm decision is made
To depart from sin
And to surrender our ways
The work of the Lord we want in our lives
Is on hold waiting for the time
Until our hearts surrender 
And recognized
The reason God send His Son 
For us to die
Was to live for Him
And the Word that is our guide
To honor Christ who sacrifice 
That we may receive eternal life
©Y.R.

Nothing

I waited
For nothing to come
Not even the wind
Was bringing forth
Any hope; any joy
Barren land I’m in 
Where the truth is not seen
Lies take away my peace
Help Lord! Please!
I need to sleep!
Recue me from this pit!
Tears keep rolling
I’m waiting for happiness to stop them
And truth to dry them up
But what truth am I waiting for?
The patched up?
The ones with a facade? 
Hiding the cruel reality inside
Do I want to know?
Is there any truth at all?
In men not at all
But of you, Christ, I recall
Saying You are the Way, Truth and Life

So in you my Lord, the living Truth, I will rely

©Y.R.

Blowing Up

My heart is blowing up

My thoughts can’t go no more
I can’t find a stop
I have to find an exit in all
Oh how I wish I find
The exit to uncertainty inside
I want to break free
Be myself, the real me
The one, You, God created to be
I want to laugh 
Laugh again so hard
Surrounded by the joy
The one Your Spirit in me overflows
I need a moment
A long one to reflect
To think, organize, forget
All these emotions inside
Lord, please help
I need Your power divine
That soothing no human balm can give
That marvellous touch
Surrounding me with Your love so big
It is You!
Only You I need!
Its Your presence I seek!
For I know tears now dont cease
But with one touch from You
I will smile again
I’ll be truly free

©Y.R.

My Will?

How naïve have I been!
Thinking my way is the ease
That I can graciously formulate
The plan of my life
Not realizing the little resources I have.
Futile thoughts my mind thinks
Pondering ways to God’s will skip
I am only deceiving 
Oh my! My own self!
Fighting with weak strength
The will of my Creator!
Poor of my soul!
A wretch is he
In its own way wanting to proceed
I wondering if that is the cause
Of what now goes
I feeling trapped in my own goals
Stuck in a tangle that doesn’t seem to clear
A tangle of all everything God doesn’t want near
Waiting for me is my Savior Divine
Waiting for me to decide
If I will break free of what I want

And finally to Him surrender my will and life

©Y.R.

Waking Up

I am dreaming of a new beginning
My process is soon ending
Bringing new blessings
I have only seen in my sleep
Oh what a relief!
When my heart just settles
In the love that is eternal
In the truth that sustains itself
In my loving Christ
I look back at my life
In my thinking realize
The road traveled has not destroyed
It has kept me strong
Every trial and situation mold
The person God wants to show
It’s overwhelming
I can’t fathom think
How in my darkest moments
God was working in me
Changing, instructing, and emerging in me
The woman He created
Breaking down the woman
The world wanted to make out of me
Is here where I see, I realize
That every situation
Gives forth another chance
That new beginnings will come in
When we surrender to God
Give Him our all
And over everything trust Him

©Y.R.

A Love

I love you
Eventhough it hurts
All the pain
Did not blow my love away
It is still beating
Strong with each pulse
Strong love you don’t know
It is not human to love again
When wounds cover
Still opened in dismay
It is a love only from Divine
A love only given by JesusChrist
The love that trascended
Time and space
Overpassing any hurt and pain
A love given so freely to me
Even when I don’t succeed
I have the unconditional fountain of love
That is God in me

©Y.R.

I Will Not Forget You

“Can a woman forget her nursing child, And not have compassion on the son of her womb? Surely they may forget, Yet I will not forget you. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭49‬:‭15‬ NKJV)

All the time people are coming in and out of our lives. There are some that do not want to be part of it. They simply walk away. Then there are others that push us away. Not because we have done wrong, but simply because they do not know how to handle to be around us anymore. This is not about us. It’s their own internal battle that pushes us away. Is their survival mechanism.

In this particular dilemma we get stuck. It is hard to deal with rejection, abandonment and forgetfulness. We do not understand why they have rejected us, have pushed us away or have simply forgotten us. It hurts because we do not want to be rejected. We don’t want to be forgotten like we were just a mere leaf that the wind blew by. Unfortunately, it does happened, and the enemy likes to take advantage of those situations to drill in our minds how worthless we are. That them forgetting is a sign how inexistent or little meaning you had in their lives.

Guess what? That is not true! People do not determine our worth! Them forgetting about you and leaving you in the air cannot control your mind with unnecessary frustration. Them choosing to forget cannot control. You know why? God says that even when people forget us or the good we have done in their lives God doesn’t forget us! How wonderful is that!
Isaiah described it like a mother that cannot forget her child. How much more precious are we to Lord Almighty! We are His children and He cares for us. Even when loneliness and abandonment wants to sink us in a whole of desperation and worthlessness God says it is not like that. Man can hurt, walk away and forget but our everlasting God will not forget us. He said I will not leave you or forsake you.

Be assured brothers and sisters that God is still present. Even when everyone has deserted you and may have even forgotten your name God says, “Yet, I will not forget you.”

©Y.R

Your Word

When my mind rumbles
And I tend to over think
I will ground my thoughts
In your Word of peace

When I see darkness
Surround and abound
The lamp unto my feet
Takes all darkness out

When the battle gets stronger
And weakened I get
I meditate on your Word
That increases my strength

When I do not know
The road to pick
I’ll cling to Your Word to guide
To do what is pleasing to Thee

©Y.R.

Lessons

There are lessons in life
We need to learn
One is to submit to God
Dispite all hurt and pain
To surrender our will
For God’s perfect way
To allow His purpose
To be our gain
Not to look at the present or
The past circumstance
That distorts the glorious future
God designed for us to have
That all soon passes
In its due time
Healing is received guided by His hand
Even when we don’t all understand
Our knowledge in the process increases
When we choose to trust
And in God rely

@Y.R.

A Thought

There are times I do not know how to keep on…
I look up and call upon the name of Jesus!
Then, only then is my spirit lifted up, my strength renewed and by hope restored.

Simple – God hears and will lift you up
KEEP TRUSTING!!

I Need A Change

I do not understand
The things I do
How my emotions control my attitude
How can I say “I’m a child of God”
When I treat people like scum?
When I hide my words
In my attitudes show my hurt
Not a nice pondering is this
Realizing a change has to be done in me
Yes, in me!
Not in the people around
But in my inside grounds
In the deepness
Of me there needs a change
A cleansing of bitterness and unforgiveness
Yes, it hurts
For me to realize
That instead of receiving healing
I’ve let unforgiveness rule over me
I cannot pretend that I’m ok
I need Your healing, Lord, promptly today!
If not I will perish in internal deceit
Of a fake and temporary peace
I want to be free in my spirit and soul
Seeing the light of Your love
That as You forgave me
So shall I have to procede
For it’s Your forgiveness that gave me a reason to live
I cannot do this on my own
I need Your help and guidance
Please help my Lord!

©Y.R.

Will

Why do I fight?
What good is it to my life?
The struggle inside
Of doing my will
Or following Christ’s
Hard I excuse
Bringing to my human mind
Incomprehension of the Divine
For it is not my mind who needs
To bring reasoning to this
But my spirit in me
Listen to His Word
Accept and keep
Though my ways may seem good
The future is only known to Him who
Is the beginning and the end
The maker of heaven and earth
Him who always knows what’s best
I relinquish my will to His way
Having assurance in me
That His will is always for my good
Even when I don’t think

©Y.R.

A Song

Theres a song birthing in me
One I want to sing
To the top of my lungs
I want to shout this song
A song of freedom
To my Lord
Express through it
What I feel inside
Express the gratitude
Of His work in my life
I want to sing
Just bring through my song
An ultimate praise of joy
That glorifies my God
That all may hear
And even sing along
Expressing how wonderful is God
Who helps through all

©Y.R.