I Need A Change

I do not understand
The things I do
How my emotions control my attitude
How can I say “I’m a child of God”
When I treat people like scum?
When I hide my words
In my attitudes show my hurt
Not a nice pondering is this
Realizing a change has to be done in me
Yes, in me!
Not in the people around
But in my inside grounds
In the deepness
Of me there needs a change
A cleansing of bitterness and unforgiveness
Yes, it hurts
For me to realize
That instead of receiving healing
I’ve let unforgiveness rule over me
I cannot pretend that I’m ok
I need Your healing, Lord, promptly today!
If not I will perish in internal deceit
Of a fake and temporary peace
I want to be free in my spirit and soul
Seeing the light of Your love
That as You forgave me
So shall I have to procede
For it’s Your forgiveness that gave me a reason to live
I cannot do this on my own
I need Your help and guidance
Please help my Lord!

©Y.R.

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Broken Dream

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I once lived a dream
So powerfully real!
Invading my senses and heart
It made it race from the start.

How real was it?
So much!
Too real to my senses
Too real to the touch

But the feeling
Tainted it was
Covered under the cloud
Was hidden a lie

No matter how wondeful
This dream turned to be
The lie that was hidden
Rotted it from within

Not yet discovered
Not yet seen
The presence of this lie
Killed the dream

As much as we wanted
The dream to proceed
It would have never lasted
A dream so unreal
A dream in a dream

There needed to be
A break from the dream
A wake up moment
Reality to peek

That all that was lived
Could not be kept alive
In a dreamy cloud
Hidding hurts and lies

Now at the wake
From this dream is
Pieces of a heart
To deal with

A hurting heart
That just woke up
Realizing with pain
The dream had to stop

Who will deal with such?
The only One who knows
The pain and suffering
Given from those He loved

He who even when hurt
Forgave them all
With no regret
Jesus, the healer of all heart’s pain.

Poetry ©Y.R.
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